174: under deconstruction

if i could redo it all

i'd like my only breakdowns to be walls

in film or fortune or fictional flicks

or diaries or dance or with drumming sticks

or poems or prose or photos galore,

in all the above, and so much more

because

now

my soul is too old

to wound and weave

timeless legends

and tasteful lies.

maybe

i am destined to tell tales

just

maybe

not

in  this  lifetime

2am musings.

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173: heart

heavy and heaving,
overpouring my emotions
overpowering my motions
in a flash, flooding me with tears
crashing into me in waves as you
join forces with gravity
to typhoon up storms
and whirl up currents
inside me to
drag
me
down

tell me heart, why
do you keep letting me
drown?

💜💜💜172: a prayer for the prey

allow me to carve out a safe space

inside my chest for you,

so crack my ribcage open

and create a cave in my heart

where love & reassurance 

beat so hard

and echo so loud

you cannot ignore them

let me drown in my own blood than cause

those who have been haunted

to continue feeling hunted.

- a prayer for the prey

2019-11-06, 2.45pm