186: not this one

In another world, reality, dimension,-
I would not feel the need to hide
behind aliases;
semi-anonymous accounts and self-censored face scribbles would be as archaic and alien as
my views being valued,
my traumas being validated,
and my feelings being justified.

In another universe,
I am accepted as I am.

In another lifetime,
I matter.

2023-01-30
2019-10-25

185: drowning

i keep getting tangled in deadlines, and then find myself lost in mazes of miswired neurons

i keep trying to unfeel the weight of the world, and then count all the ways i am a burden

i keep trying to stay afloat,
but this heart is too heavy

i don't have time
for this 

20220204 01:23

184: can nibble

kau bangga

lepas kau pecahkan siling kaca

berdiri tegak di mercu kejayaan

kau bahagia

lupa yang kau pijak segala tulang belakang yang rapuh bawah 

yang kau ratah lapah darah daging, isi tinggalkan kuku

kau bahaya

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kau bangga

pecahkan siling kaca

dengan memijak tetulang

belakang dibawah

kau bahagia

tegak di mercu kejayaan

setelah meratah darah daging

orang disekeliling

kau benar-benar

bahaya

2021-10-15 09.40