175: librated

you stormed into my life like a typhoon.

swept me off my feet 
as i get whisked into the air
in a single smoky breath.
restless, relentless spirit, 
a thing of mystery and wander;
an acquired sight to behold
from afar.

at the whiff of your scent on another body, 
words escape me
while memories rush in:

your salty skin on the tip of my tongue,
your warm hands squeezing my sides,
your books on my bedside table,
the sight of unanswered blue ticks
the soft toothbrush i left behind
the silence of blocked calls
 and i am grounded again.

- 2025-01-30 14:46


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you stormed into my life like a typhoon,
a restless spirit sweeping me off my feet
in a single smoky breath -
relentless,
a thing of mystery and wonder,
an acquired sight to behold from afar,
a ride
  i cannot stay on.

yet, at the whiff of your scent on another body, words escape me
i think of your salty skin on the tip of my tongue,
the warmth of your hands on mine, and
the things we left for each other:
my toothbrush at your place
your books beside my bed
and the sound of blue ticks signalling
  that i am grounded again.

- 2020-01-23 20:08

174: under deconstruction

if i could redo it all
i'd like my only breakdowns to be walls
in film or fortune or fictional flicks
or diaries or dance or with drumming sticks
or poems or prose or photos galore,
in all the above, and so much more
because
now
my soul is too old
to wound and weave
timeless legends
and tasteful lies.

maybe
i am destined to tell tales
just
maybe

not
in  this  lifetime


2am musings.

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173: heart

heavy and heaving,
overpouring my emotions
overpowering my motions
in a flash, flooding me with tears
crashing into me in waves as you
join forces with gravity
to typhoon up storms
and whirl up currents
inside me to
drag
me
down

tell me heart, why
do you keep letting me
drown?