🔥179: supreme

there is much to be said
about mass manifestations
in a time of moral panic

the small yet steady streams
of serfs in socially-distant safs
earnestly serving the Sublime with
practised platters of prayers in parted palms
and pleas pattering through covered lips
to pave the best path for the departed;
to pad the blow for the broken-hearted.

in tongues
sometimes familiar 
mostimes foreign,
i can't help but marvel
at our divinely unity
in seeking Infinity.


- Supreme (draft)
Ori: 20200624 02:03
Edited: 20200704 21:55







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there is so much
to be said about
mass manifestations in a time of moral panic;
serfs in socially-distant safs
serving the Sublime
with platters of parting palms
and pleas through covered lips,
to pave the best path for the departed
to pad the blow for the brokenhearted.

in tongues
sometimes familiar 
mostimes foreign,
i marvel at our unity
in seeking Infinity.

- Supreme (draft), 20200624 02:03

178: (re)vertigo

in these ungodly hours,
between sneezing fits and coughing spells,
i am reminded yet again of my choices in life:
what i shouldn't have done
where i shouldn't have gone
who i shouldn't have loved
why i shouldn't have cared
when i should have stopped
trying
as i inhale yet suffocate on nothingness,
my breaths wheezing in and out of tight airways
squeezing through inflammed slime-padded walls;
if the air pressure drops, i know i need to get my oxygen first before
i focus on others, but every time i stumble with my own mask
to deal with a vessel that constantly breaks down
triggered by too many things that it thinks is a threat,
i realise that no one else around me has lungs that malfunction
like we have left our atmosphere despite still being on land.

as an alien living in constant fear of unidentified flying objects,
my eyes are as cloudy as my thoughts, but i am not high.
i'm too acrophobic to be in heavenly spaces
so i stay displaced and disgraced, grounded
feet firmly planted in a foreign home
that regularly chokes me.
tell me, when should i stop trying?

- (re)vertigo, 20191118 0745

177: tenanglah hati

tak henti-henti
aku berhati-hati
dari menyakiti hati

kenapa aku sentiasa
tentang hatiku sendiri

- tenanglah hati, 2025-01-30, 2.40pm


tak henti-henti 

aku berhati-hati

dari menyakiti hati


tapi kenapa aku sentiasa

tentang hatiku sendiri


- tenanglah hati, 2020-11-03, 1.40pm