102: will i?

no --

i will not fall for it.

i will resist temptation.

i will stop this urge.

i will control myself.

i will allow my ego
to save whatever's left of my pride.

after all,

that's the only thing i can do
that i feel i am actually
in control of.

so ---

you will grip your chest tightly.

you will close your eyes and look away.

you will block and hum out those words.

you will not be swayed.

you will try to make sense
of your lack of sensibilities;

after all,

that's the only thing you can do
that will prevent a swollen heart
one more time.