149: heartless

once again,
you are caught red-handed
with another pulpy, still-beating heart
ripped out of a chest you've once been a guest in.

blood splutters all around
as you squish it inside your fist,
turning tears into tsunamis
and friends into foes.

this isn't your first time,
i know.


2017-12-13 4.39pm

148: salah

sebenarnya
doa-doa mereka
supaya saya jadi orang yang berguna
hanya buat saya resah.

saya
serba salah.



2017-11-18
4.36pm

147: full circle

i keep dipping in and out of circles;
running in one spot and then to another
everoverworrying that it's never gonna be my place
to say or do or think or feel the way i do
and it always leads me back
to me wondering if
i'll ever




          f    i    n   d



                      my         

place
 
                                                         in

                                                                        the
                                                                       
                                                           

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