96: Inhabitation Inhibition

Breathein

Breatheout

Pause

i wish i could understand this.

Pause

Breathein

i wish i could tell you off for distracting my thoughts
simply by existing
so you'd know how annoying it is
to be forced to think of someone for no reason at all and

i wish i could know what would happen if i bugged you
every second, minute, hour, day that i think of you
but i don't want you to think of me
wanting you to think of me thinking about you and

i wish i could sleep this off
because me being so preoccupied by you
must be pretty creepy and you should
already know by now i'm weird and this should be expected and

i wish i could figure out
why i can't stop thinking about you
and good lord this whole overthinking
is getting quite ridiculous so

could you please stop invading my mind and
terrorising my brain cells and neurons and senses and
making me lose my focus while doing the most random things?

Breatheout

maybe if i wrote this down this will make more sense

maybe if i saw it in words it'll be easier to clear my head
maybe if i mouthed out my words the feelings would stop when i do

Breathein

Scribble.

I don't understand this.

I can't understand this.

I can't understand this.

you're not welcome here.