CTRL+Z

i keep getting tangled in deadlines, and then find myself lost in mazes of miswired neurons

i keep trying to unfeel the weight of the world, and then count all the ways i am a burden

i keep trying to stay afloat,
but this heart is too heavy

i don't have time
for this

20220204 01:23

kau bangga

lepas kau pecahkan siling kaca

berdiri tegak di mercu kejayaan

kau bahagia

lupa yang kau pijak segala tulang belakang yang rapuh bawah

yang kau ratah lapah darah daging, isi tinggalkan kuku

kau bahaya

20250130 1458

~~kau bangga~~

~~pecahkan siling kaca~~

~~dengan memijak tetulang~~

~~belakang dibawah~~

~~kau bahagia~~

~~tegak di mercu kejayaan~~

~~setelah meratah darah daging~~

~~orang disekeliling~~

~~kau benar-benar~~

~~bahaya~~

~~2021-10-15 09.40~~

your persistent open burning

sparked by pandemic loneliness

fueled by anxiety and idle hands

is starting to destroy my sanctuary.

your smoky taste of trauma bonds

this smell of ashy codependency

is starting to suffocate me.

i don't need another gaslight.

- devil's playground

2021-05-04, 6.24pm