176: sweater weather

today,

we collectively hold our breaths as

covert agents continue to take hostage 

of millions in its path like there's no tomorrow

amidst all the rage against iron fists that

ignore the pleas of those in the front lines and

the plights of those they are supposed to protect,

as systems break down and dreams fall apart,

my apocalyptic anxiety is offset

by drizzle

tickling my soul as i face

the blue sky that keeps getting darker

as the world continues to crash and burn

and nothing makes much sense,

i wish i had

a soul connection

- 20201005

175: librated

you stormed into my life like a typhoon.

swept me off my feet 

as i get whisked into the air

in a single smoky breath.

restless, relentless spirit, 

a thing of mystery and wander;

an acquired sight to behold

from afar.

at the whiff of your scent on another body, 

words escape me

while memories rush in:

your salty skin on the tip of my tongue,

your warm hands squeezing my sides,

your books on my bedside table,

the sight of unanswered blue ticks

the soft toothbrush i left behind

the silence of blocked calls

 and i am grounded again.

- 2025-01-30 14:46

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you stormed into my life like a typhoon,
a restless spirit sweeping me off my feet
in a single smoky breath -
relentless,
a thing of mystery and wonder,
an acquired sight to behold from afar,
a ride
  i cannot stay on.

yet, at the whiff of your scent on another body, words escape me
i think of your salty skin on the tip of my tongue,
the warmth of your hands on mine, and
the things we left for each other:
my toothbrush at your place
your books beside my bed
and the sound of blue ticks signalling
  that i am grounded again.

- 2020-01-23 20:08

173: heart

heavy and heaving,
overpouring my emotions
overpowering my motions
in a flash, flooding me with tears
crashing into me in waves as you
join forces with gravity
to typhoon up storms
and whirl up currents
inside me to
drag
me
down

tell me heart, why
do you keep letting me
drown?

💜💜💜172: a prayer for the prey

allow me to carve out a safe space

inside my chest for you,

so crack my ribcage open

and create a cave in my heart

where love & reassurance 

beat so hard

and echo so loud

you cannot ignore them

let me drown in my own blood than cause

those who have been haunted

to continue feeling hunted.

- a prayer for the prey

2019-11-06, 2.45pm